I am truly on the cusp of something life changing. My life is about to undergo a shift unlike any I’ve ever experienced — truly the biggest thing that has ever happened to me in my life. Dan & I are expecting our first child in July.
We heard the baby’s heartbeat for the first time about a week ago (on New Year’s Eve) so now I feel like it’s real. I’m full of a huge range of emotions. I feel excited, nervous, overwhelmed, worried, tired. It’s something that we both wanted very much, but now that it’s happened, it’s a little scary. We have that whole, “what did we just get ourselves into” feeling going on.
I suspect that over the coming weeks and months this is going to become a larger and larger focus for my blogging — how can it not, as it becomes a larger and larger part of my life? It’s such a wonderful adventure, and I’m very much looking forward to it. But it amazes me, every day, how little I know and how unprepared I feel as I go along. As someone who truly feels called to teach, it’s exciting on a whole extra level – this new person will be a product of me and my perspective in a way that makes me reexamine a lot of what I think. But it’s wonderful, exciting and fantastic, and I know it will be a great experience.